Hello world, it’s me Brendan.
First off, allow me to apologize for the recent lack of updates. The combination of becoming progressively busier at work, starting to write articles for the fantabulous Torontoist website and not having been able to find a place for a month meant I hadn’t touched this blog in a while. Now allow me to blow off the dust.
To quickly summarize my progress in the last couple of months: I was back in Etobicoke at my family home, then at Queen West, and am now living in The Beaches (and screw all you people who call it The Beach). Entries on The Beaches are forthcoming, but first, a long piece about Queen West I’ve been meaning to write for a while.
Stomping through Queen West – Part 1
Last month I lived in a condominium in a lowrise complex just north of Queen Street West at Bathurst. The area was ground zero for not just my own teenage development but for the coming of age of an entire generation of weirdos, losers, brawlers and freaks, fondly remembered by artists and journalists for its Friday night tapestry of subcultures. In the nineties and early aughts, a nighttime stroll at Queen and Bathurst would reveal a cross section of non-conformity, from the punks, skinheads, goths and aging rockers outside the Big Bop to the squeegee kids, drunks and drug addicts perched on the steps of St. Christopher house across the street.
But like the stretches of Queen Street to the east and west, Queen and Bathurst is succumbing to the sweeping wave of gentrification that is changing so much of the city. And now, as I walk around the area in my topcoat and Blundstone boots, I can’t help but wonder where future generations of underage misfits will go to feel at home.

Even in the 1920s, the crowds loved the Big Bop. Photo from the City of Toronto archives.
I can’t say for certain how it started. All I know is that by the time I got involved at the age of 16, it was almost over. As an Etobicoke teenager unhappy with my surroundings and enamored with the grimy urbania of the inner city (which actually put me in the majority among the people who frequented the area most nights), Queen and Bathurst had just what I was looking for.
Anchoring the intersection was the Big Bop, a purple giant that housed three clubs, each catering to a slightly different demographic. I came to know the Reverb, on the second floor, as the domain of the bands of my art school friends. And I never so much as climbed the stairs to Holy Joe’s, on the third floor. For me, the grungy main-floor Kathedral was where everything happened. Where, while waiting one night for the Dayglo Abortions to start playing, I had my first toke of weed. Where I witnessed countless couples making out on the back couches, envious and lonely, before finally doing it myself. And where I sobered up just in time to remember the second half of the now defunct streetpunk band Riot 99’s last-ever set, which is more than I can say for the band’s singer.
The Big Bop currently sits empty, its already dumpy exterior further tarnished with middle grade graffiti and a real estate sign. It’s supposed to become a furniture store. It was eulogized in alt-weeklies when it shut in 2009, its closing considered symbolic of the area’s gentrification. But for me, Queen and Bathurst was gone years before that.
***
There is a fence running along the north end of the condominium complex I called home in April, bordering Alexandra park and preventing anyone from entering the complex from the park. There are even spiked ends at the top of the fence’s bars to discourage climbers. Apart from being an inconvenience to anyone wanting to go for a walk in the park or the community garden next door, the fence, along with security guards on all-day patrols, serves the more practical purpose of keeping the park’s denizens out of the complex. It also effectively shuts an entire city block out of public use, ensuring the walkways that run through the complex of European-style lowrise buildings are used by residents only.
My brother Nick came over one evening and we discussed urban issues over a few beers, because, well, we’re lame and that’s the sort of thing we like to talk about. Nick is fond of calling me a yuppie and a hipster whenever possible, using the terms interchangeably as if they mean the same thing. Over our third or maybe fourth beer of the night, he accused me (and my hipster roommate) of being part of the gentrifying force at Queen and Bathurst. “I’m not gentrifying it,” I said. “I still like the culture, I just also want a nice place to live.” “That’s what gentrification is,” he said. “You yuppie.”
***
I remember with vivid detail my first punk show at Queen and Bathurst. I was 16, a typical angry teenager from Etobicoke who felt blessed just to be somewhere else for the evening. My friend Dave was doing video work for a band he would later join, and he took me along to record one of the group’s sets. Before the show we drank pitchers of beer in a tiny but notorious dive called the Q Bar, all of us underage and without any sort of ID.
The show took place at another small bar called Ania’s International Café, and was almost ended twice by the owner: when three band members were caught smoking pot in the bathroom, and after the headlining act ripped the bar’s ‘No admittance to any person under 19’ poster off the front window and used it to write down their setlist. I rode the subway back to Etobicoke afterward, slightly drunk and with ringing ears, confident I had in some small way transcended my own boring existence. I came back to Queen and Bathurst almost every weekend for the next two years.
After finishing university I returned to the area, not for the countercultural vibes but to do an internship at a nearby public relations firm where I would eventually be hired full time. I cross the intersection every day and I always marvel at what has and has not changed after eight years. After being shut down by the police enough times, the Q Bar changed owners and suffered several unsuccessful makeovers before its current use as a trendy club, which seems to be working out well. Rotate This!, still in my mind Toronto’s best record store, has moved further west on Queen Street but is otherwise unchanged. Ania’s International Café disappeared sometime before the building that housed it burned to the ground in the infamous purging fire of 2008. And the back alleys behind the bars, where we drank malt liquor 40s like so many other teenaged pseudo-rebels and where I enjoyed my first drunken makeout, are still there, just as pleasantly grimy as I remember.